Excuses for the Uninvolved

I’m the bad parent, I’m the one to blame I projected my flaws unto you to ruin your name It’s ridiculous, I know, it’s insane, Now I get why you questioned the state of my brain

So let’s just cut the bullshit

It’s all my fault

I’m the reason you’re uninvolved

I shouldn’t have text

I shouldn’t have called

Bugging, annoying you up the wall.

 

Maybe I’m the reason you went away

I should’ve begged for you to stay

I did too much, and left you no space

Lord have mercy, I even prayed

 

Your problems are much bigger than mine

I know now that you require more time

When I told you to do better, I crossed the line

I should’ve been arrested for my crime

 

I shouldn’t have asked for you to try

It probably pushed you away to hear me cry

You failed to show, and I asked you why

My bad for expecting a reply

 

See, I’ve realized that some people need a break before they start labor

I ask for too much, I’m the worst kind of neighbor

I should’ve just shut the fuck up while you chased the paper

But I was always impatient, never a waiter

 

When you took from us, I shouldn’t have questioned you

Now I’ve blocked my blessings by rushing you

All of the days I spent cursing you,

If I were to relapse now, it’d be nothing new (I did)

 

I’m the bad parent, I’m the one to blame

I projected my flaws unto you to ruin your name

It’s ridiculous, I know, it’s insane,

Now I get why you questioned the state of my brain

 

I’m in the hospital, day 3, writing this

The princess is sleep, complete silence

I asked you to come, I should just stop trying it

I hope you can forgive me, these habits don’t die quick

 

This is a poem for my baby’s father

Another attempt to get you to try harder

That’s all I know, huh? I’m such a bother

Like I have to want the best for our daughter

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